Year-1 :)

i had a feeling... that tonights gonna be a good night.. and it was. wine dine n movies...life's good.

Weekend

Cant believe how days go by...the weekend is almost getting over :( yest was too lazy to show up here....n tired too. plus system-less what more could i do. day was good today. pract session was amazing though it dint start off all that well for me. was on empty tummy so got squeamish n all :/

then the pract was just picking up momentum when V showed up with a bunch of ppl he had to choreograph for...well this is his business so couldn't do anything. frens had been to go-karting n also there was some dj in the lounge. i had a nice cosy time at home. wouldn't trade it for anything :)

gotta get up early tomorrow. hopefully i'll get better at this writing...oooh i had this funny story to tell bout super heroes ,,well some other time!

wednesday

is it the time of the week where one faces mid-week crisis? maybe...two more days to go for the weekend and i dont even know if i will be having one. i need to be back in my practice regime soon. day was pretty good. J's and S's b'day. though they are not having a ball of time there with all the escalations and stuff happening.

making a lot of new friends...:) whats with me and late nights nowadays...i ended up waking at 11.30 today..that too cuz M came n woke me,or else...hmmmm things are getting lil rotten at home.well was bound to happen considering the attitudes and approach of each individual. luckily i'm not involved.i dont think i'd be able to handle it. have enough to think bout already.

after watching wake up sid few of my dreams were rekindled. that was why i called it desires but ended up not filling them. the job, the independent life, my own lil place, photography...hmmm when will i start doing what i want and live the life i wanna

gotta do a list... a list of "to do .. in .. " need a cam!

want a tattoo!

wanna learn to drive !

wanna go home :(

hmmmm i should sleep!

Tuesday

what do i have to say bout today. not much. pretty much a regular day but issues seem to have increased at work. brain goes numb after work... its like how i would feel sorry for the faces i'd see returning home after work. now i'm one among "them"!!

found this in one liners...a job is nice...but it interferes with my life :)

hmmm gotta start stretches regularly. eat properly n sleep on time.. things are changing...i should get some sleep... maybe tomorrow will be a better day..

Monday!

Cant believe it! third day in a row and i'm back here again. hmmm that's a good sign. Monday blues weren't all that bad. A little hectic day but other than that it was pretty ok. Rode an R1! cruised at 95kmph!! well i dunno wats all the hype bout R1s,cuz it was ok..not very compfy..anyways i've always been partial to Pulsar! Definitely male :)

Hmmm dint have much time to think so it was somewhat ok. Thinking in my case is definitely injurious to my health. But i know the week is gonna fly and it wont be that bad. Lets just see bout that. i guess i'll just hit the sack, maybe read a lil. life seems stagnant at times. hmmm *sighs* i sooo nee dmy space. When am i gonna get it? but its a lil freaky too..what was it that they say,...be careful what you wish for, for it may come true.

Sometimes it just doesn't make sense. if someone had to live in my head i'd have diven them nuts with all the gibberish nonstop thoughts. I mean i never black out. ther is always something or anything. gosh! i talk alot in my head. and very few know it. Thank god for them understanding me so well!

I guess that will be all for today. i've been watching the vampire diaries...crappy stuff. ok i'll stop. if i pour out every thought i could probably fill up the web lol . . .

Dilemma

I don't even know why i called the last one desires but this one definitely defines my state of mind. how hard it is to decide between a necessity and a need. is it always the right thing to choose necessity over need. how can i explain what i want is what i cant do without. how hard it is to suppress my opinions and compromise thinking tomorrow will be a better day. o turn a blind eye to Wat irks me the most and pretend like it doesn't matter.

But of course it does. I am what i am. i love it that way and this is what makes me "me". Without being too pompous if i may say it...I'll say I'm not all that difficult. i just have ways of my own n i like it to be that way. its human nature to resist change. and boy am i stubborn. i should stop considering myself difficult. i should learn to voice my opinion loud at the same time try not to hurt anybody's feelings.

i miss home. miss mom, its been long...

sometimes i just fell so alone ..i know i shouldn't. i should feel blessed that i have people who love and care for me. but sometimes it feels like some don't understand you the way they should. and some just know you too well for your own good. and its worse to feel lonely in a crowd. its sick to pretend everything is fine when its not. and my illusions were shattered today when i was told i su*k at masking my emotions. well I'll just have to try harder on it now, ain't it so...

its sometimes good being busy at work.. though i crib bout it time and again...it feels good to be needed. good to be busy without having time to let thoughts wander.

i shouldn't be low like this.. i had quiet an amazing weekend. i should be glad, see the brighter part of the picture and sleep over it. get up tomorrow and get carried through the week...thats wat i'll do now!

Desires!

Planning never works...wasn't that something i'd said sometime back...well not planning is just worse. I had alot of expectations outta this weekend and look what happened. maybe i jinxed it . Spoke too much bout it. i dunno. Signs were all over the place. It was very disappointing. But made it up in the end. Well lets see how tomorrow goes and maybe then i'll say more :) i have so many things to talk bout. old friends and new. work and relatives. food and hygiene. what not. i have an opinion bout everything. Sometimes i wonder how can anyone put up with me. i mean i'm really really hard to live with or be around unless you are like minded of course.

I have so many quirks and ways of my own that i myself cant explain why it has to be so... but well i love the way i am so it shouldn't be all that difficult :) Wanting things to be clean and in its place isnt too much to ask for. a lil discipline a lil hygiene few rules hasnt hurt anyone. hmmm well more bout it some other time. now its time to hit the sack probably after a lil bit of movie. watching love and other disasters. so far so good..