Happy state

Yes I'm in a happy state. I spoke yesterday. My heart spoke so yes I'm in a happy state. I heard things I was longing to hear. I read it on the blog too. So yes I'm happy :) Time to go now....

What Oprah said about men...

Got it through mail but found on web too...

what Oprah said about men...

If a man wants you, nothing can keep
him away. If he doesn't want you,
nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his
behavior.Allow your intuition (or spirit) to
save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a
relationship that's not meant to be.

Slower is better. Never live your life
for a man before you find what makes
you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man
was not treating you as you deserve
then heck no, you can't "be friends".
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is
stringing you along, then he probably
is.
Don't stay because you think "it will
get better." You'll be mad at yourself
a year later for staying when things
are not better.
The only person you can control in a
relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of
children by a bunch of different
women. He didn't marry them when he
got them pregnant, why would he treat
you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends
separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy
treats you. If something bothers you,
speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He
will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior.
Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more
important than you are... even if he
has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god. He
is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man. If he
cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you
ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all
the bending...compromis e is two way
street.
You need time to heal between
relationships. ..there is nothing cute
about baggage... deal with your issues
before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to
COMPLETE you... a relationship
consists of two WHOLE individuals.
Look for someone complimentary, not
supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't
turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes... when a
man always know where you are, and
you're always readily available to
him - he takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother's house.
Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully
commit to a man who doesn't give you
everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know
others

Tag

Well I was feeling bad for not having had the time to spare and write so thought might as well do a quick tag and sleep. And yes I'll definitely sleep early as I wake up craving for more all the time. 

Rule: Strike out all that you have done from the following list.

1. Graduated high school – yep 

2. Kissed someone  – Of course!! Duh! 

3. Smoked a cigarette – Not on your life!

4. Got so drunk you passed out – Nope. 

5. Rode every ride at an amusement park – I wish...

6. Collected something stupid – Yea, lotta knick knacks all through my life 

7. Gone to a rock concert – Yep!  

8. Helped someone – I try! :)

9. Gone fishing -  would love to do that someday, movie style! not like a fisherman though :o

10. Watched four movies in one night – sigh no!

11. Lied to someone – Hmmm sometimes. doesnt feel good though.

12. Snorted cocaine –gee no thanks!

13. Smoked Weed – hee :D what do you think?? (edited 18.08.2011-> Done :D)

14. Failed a subject –Never :)

15. Been in a car accident – Nope! Thank God!

16. Been in a tornado – almost...does cyclone count?

17. Watched someone die – No.

18. Been to a funeral  – Yea

19. Burned yourself – Ocassionally.

20. Run a marathon – No, I doubt if its my cuppa...

21. Cried yourself to sleep - once in a while. As i've said before, crying is healthy.

22. Spent over 10,000 bucks in one day – Oh yea! 

23. Flown on an aeroplane – in an aeroplane – yes!

24. Cheated on someone – no

25. Been cheated on – yes :(

26. Written a 10 page letter - Almost!  

27. Gone skiing - Someday...

28. Been sailing - yes.

29. Cut yourself – All the time *rollingmyeyes*

30. Had a best friend – "Have" yea

31. Lost someone you loved – yea

32. Got into trouble for something you didn’t do – sometimes....

33. Stolen a book from the library – Never! Books are precious and something to be revered according to me. 

34. Gone to a different country – yea

35. Watched the Harry Potter movies – Of course! 

36. Had an online diary – If these count.

37. Fired a gun - yup!

38. Gambled in a casino – Go Goa!

39. Been in a school play - yesh!

40. Been fired from a job – no

41. Taken a lie detector test – no

42. Swam with dolphins – Sigh! no!

43. Voted for someone on a reality TV show - Nope!

44. Written poetry – yes :)

45. Read more than 20 books a year – Of course!

46. Gone to Europe – Almost is not good enough...

47. Loved someone you shouldn’t have – yea!

48. Used a coloring book over age 12 – Why not!

49. Had a surgery  – nope

50. Had stitches – nope (thank God!)

51. Taken a Taxi - Duh!

52. Had more than 5 IM conversations going on at once – rarely.

53. Been in a fist fight – Extremely non violent person :)

54. Suffered any form of abuse Verbal – again rarely but i've held my ground well.

55. Had a pet – yep! Cats,dogs.

56. Petted a wild animal – someday....

57. Had your own credit card & bought something with it – Well I do carry a CC though its not mine and I have shopped with it :D…

58. Dyed your hair – never had the guts.Maybe someday  ->now done!

59. Got a tattoo – Soon!

60. Had something pierced – ear lobes! 

61. Got straight As – Most of the time! 

62. Known someone personally with HIV or AIDS – no..

63. Taken pictures with a webcam – yea... 

64. Lost something expensive – cant remember...hmmm I'm pretty careful 

65. Gone to sleep with music on – sometimes

Happiness contd

Despite apprehensions and what nots, my stubbornness, frustration and sarcasm at the beginning of the day...it eventually rolled out fine. Actually had a good time. And physical labor always rejuvenates me. Killing all my anger/sarcasm/frustration. I had started off with this last Saturday night. A lot of things have happened since. That night kicked off horribly but ended on a better note. Sunday was fun too. I finally went with impulse and bought an mp3 player so its awesome as I can listen to music anytime :) heee...

And that brings me to how much I've been spending thoughtlessly. Well not too rashly as i've bought things that I really needed but never bought it before though I wanted to. So its ok to splurge a little. Monday was good. Relaxed and had my unplanned "me" time. The day ended well too. Reminiscing old times. Tuesday, i.e. today was not bad. Though I did feel little dizzy and what not I survived and headed out no early than 4.45pm. I was planning to wrap it up by 4 but then got busy as usual.

And I dunno whats with me...I just have been postponing posting. Today will just go ahead no matter what. Day was pretty ok. No mood to work at all. sleeeepy. tada.but posting:)

Happiness

I'm tired. I need sleep. I've been working my ass off all week. I've been on call or logging in from home or cooking or washing. I need to sleep. But no I have to get up early and go to be there for the Team. Its not that I don't love it or them, its just that I have not had a "me" time in a long time. Its just that I have not slept as much as I would have liked to. 

I read lotta blogs bout being happy , choosing to be happy and by not ranting how they are not spreading unhappiness. Well in my point of view its OK to rant or sulk. Its your blog, your views. You need to be the one to decide what you want to write. For me this is my place to come and vent. To free myself of all the burdens. I have nothing against anyones opinions. And I'm sorry in advance if any of you ever come to visit.

The feel of something familiar is so soothing. Well I'm back to my old face wash so it feels good. See maybe all these people are right, it is bout choosing to be happy. Yes I would always choose happiness. If only it chose me....

Complicated

Uh huh
Life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh
That's the way it is
'Cause life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh
That's the way it is.


Ok so Life's like this. I accept it the way it is. I made alot of choices. I'm living with it now. I accept I'm a workaholic. I accept I'm an obsessive compulsive creature. It pisses me off to see my things not in the place where I originally left them, It pisses me off to see water running and wasted while you stand in front of the sink brushing, it pisses me off to listen to stupid men talk like misogynists. It pisses me off when colleagues I work with day to day give me a once-over. I'm not pissed off at life. Its just the little things.


Of course its again the little things that make me happy/smile. It makes me happy to be wearing good clothes. I Know when I look good even if no one tells me so. I think feeling beautiful is more important than being told or anyone trying to convince you that you are. I feel happy when my cooking is appreciated. Yes, I've begun cooking again after a long time and I feel good. I felt happy for a change to see the sun had not yet set when I left office on Tuesday. I felt happy to see the rains and also it stopped timely till I made it home without getting drenched. I was ecstatic when R called to tell me she is getting 100% scholarship for her higher studies. Also I was a little sad that I wont be able to do it. I have learnt to accept things as they are. I have learnt not to dream big, but to have faith I'll be self sufficient. 


I think this post is boring wit a lot of "I's , well I needed to talk. So dont you judge me. Work is going ok. Talking to ma pretty often. I really need to get a good phone/mp3 player. Phone is all the more in a screwed up state. Also need earphones. I cut my finger on all three consecutive days. I remembered the boys while cooking. Well 2 of them are coming back this month. Sam maam is getting married, but i doubt I can attend the function. :( Siva's hopefully will make it. And I think I should sleep. I miss being a little girl who had to wake up and walk to school. Who used to get two months of long summer vacations. hmmm...Life goes on... 

Happy 100th baby

 

My hundredth post! I had high hopes for this one. Thought that i should probably write something interesting and out of the world but I sadly dont have the time or patience these days. Its 1.20 am and here I am ready to talk about elevators.

 

Yes this post is dedicated to all the people who think elevator buttons are to flex the finger muscles, or who think that they could win a jackpot by pressing it 'n' number of times. For some probably its a fixation and for the others some weird turn-on. Beats me. The worst part is watching this at work. I feel like screaming my lungs out "Hello! You are an engineer for God's sake, you should know better! It ain't gonna come any sooner you moron!" Hmmm I know probably I'm venting out my work frustrations like this. But still its common sense right.

 

Anyways, work front it has been hectic yet stimulating. I feel important and almost like an SME (subject Matter Expert) as I have colleagues from other regions calling me for advise. I should probably ask for a raise. :)

 

At home things are well. One of my roomies Foo is getting engaged this weekend. Dance wise its going great touch-wood. I'm getting the baby-freeze, side stands etc...I need to get the head stand still. Also tried my hand at choreography. Well lets say its been interesting busy days.

 

Thats all for now, and as there is no power I dont know when i'll be posting this. Maybe this way I get an opportunity to add a little more before posting. Geee what an idea sirjee hehehe adios till then.

 

The whole universe was in a hot dense state, then fourteen billion years ago expansion started..-Wait!

The earth began to cool

Autotrophs began to drool

Neanderthals developed tools

We built the wall, We built the pyramids

Math, Science history,

Unraveling the mystery

It all started with a Big Bang. Bang! :) Oh yes i'm addicted. V,much. I was up till three last night. And now too!. Gotta rush to office. Had another thing to talk about! Water! Later...

 

Oh my god I'm having a panic attack. Well these thoughts have been coming and going. I have been considering it as an option. But it suddenly started freaking me out seeing my cousin's marriage pictures. Freak I'm old! I am just panicking for no reason. I need to breathe and just go away somewhere. I really hope something comes up. Was chatting with Sayee and same old feelings come back. I want a place of my own!

 

I denied Mangi of laptop this morning for the fear of disclosing blog/blog content, also my mail auto logs in so I dint want to take the chance. So today is the third day and I still haven't put up this post! Why you ask? I want some good content but I know for sure it's just gonna be my same old stories. Here I am going on and on. Well something did happen. Mr.GR told me he's interested in me. He's a nice guy, a good friend and yea mujhe bhanak thi he likes me probably but that dint stop me from talking to him or being friendly. I think AJ was right about me. I might call it being friendly, but in the true sense I am flirting. Though I hate to admit this, but it probably is true that I risk being too friendly at times. And I bring it on to myself. And then I curse myself as to what have I gotten into. I hope there's normalcy.

 

Aks got engaged, good for her and R. She looked pretty and happy. Tomorrow is going to be busy and tiring...And oh crap I still haven't got any shoes. Well I was supposed to buy last weekend but just ended up getting office k liye sandals. Got heels this time for a change, did I already mention that? Maybe not, it's been long time since I blogged. I guess that is all for now. Been thinking on a storyline. Coming soon.