Friday Yay!!

Well I do have a few things to share….I tried my hand at a paneer dish yesterday. I dint know what to call it until I finished preparing. Finally I named it shaahi paneer :D It turned out well and everyone loved it. I was so happy!! :D

Today I wore my bright pink kurta to office! I was tired of the same old sober colour formals. It’s a little saddening to be looked down upon by other Indian Chicks who are prim and properly dressed in western formals. But who cares. I am happy. And I love to get tongues wagging :p

I am weird in that way.

Anyhoo I dared to go out to the library with Mon without the coat. It was and still is windy. There is an emergency door behind me which has some opening like a tiny gap so we can hear the wind howling and it gets creepy at times. And every time I try to record it on the phone it slows down and stops. It got me bugged. So I stopped.

Here I go , I am digressing again. Well the library is awesome. And the membership is FREE!! This is one thing I love bout this place. Free books and newspapers. And most of the people are found reading on buses and tubes. I can stay here for a long long time if I don’t tire of the books. I feel bad to have wasted three months. I used to pass by this library everyday!! Well I did have other books to read though.

Gossip gal has pinged me. She has gone home back to India still she logs in. Workaholic! Anyways she is bitching bout chudail and I am in no mood right now. Well I spoke to her all is well.

Gotta go. Its Friday and I wanna go home!

Nothing to say...

OMG!! Was she being nice to me? Yes Her! She was talking to me smiling and being jovial. Omg I can’t believe this! Hmm this answers what was haunting me yesterday. Well it so happened that this Indian chick comes by to give M a couple of cake slices. Why you ask? Because she was having a rough day! Well god blesses everyone.

I was a little busy getting my post ready for the WP account so could not write here yesterday! : (

Well it’s Thursday!! Tomorrow is Friday and then the weekend is here! It is such a joyous occasion. Again we are planning to make it to Cambridge this weekend. Let’s see how that plans out.

Since I have started writing at home too I don’t have much to rant here. So for more than three days in arrow no post! Tut tut. So lets do some tag eh

The idea is to do an image search for every answer and choose any image from the first page…

1. The age you will be on your next birthday: 24

2. A place you’d like to travel to: Switzerland when its like this :)

3. Your favourite place: Beach

4. Your favourite food:Konkani meal

Drink: Red wine

5. Your favourite pet: cat!

6. Your favourite colour combination:

7. Your favourite piece of clothing: saree

8. Your all time favourite song: Happy Ending

9. Your favourite TV show: duh! need i say more

10. Full name of your significant other: Hmm

11. The town in which you live: Bangalore

12. Your screen name/nickname:Tigress

13. Your first job: IT professional

14. Your dream job: Travel Photographer

15. Bad habit you have:ummm need i say...

16. Your worst fear: being lonely

17. The one thing you’d like to do before you die: i think i'll make a post out of thisquestion. So skip.


18: The first thing you will buy if you get $1,000,000: house

Phew that was hard work. It took me 3 hrs to get it done.

Hmmm not bad. I just found a funny blog. Will get back to you later!!

Decisions

I fear if I have made the wrong decision. If I should maybe pack my bags and run while I still have the chance. But I don’t wanna chicken out. I am getting aggressive as days go by. And that my friend is not a good sign. As I’ve been told earlier I live on extremes. I don’t know what will happen when I am pushed to the core now.

Gah! I finally got done with the nonsensical thing pending since last night, which I was worrying about unnecessarily. Well I worry constantly don’t I! Well I just don’t want to regret after going back that I lost an opportunity to do right by myself. I just have to keep faith going strong and walk on.

Easing the tension, lets talk about less tense stuff. Like C*s is back. Hope that chudail decides to steam off at his expense. Am I being mean? Hell, who cares! They both deserve each other. (Though I did hear his human side today while he was talking to his kid, it doesn’t count. Well I melt at such stuff…) what else, yes I have started writing again. That helps a lot when I am brooding in the room. The thing is I talk in my head. A lot! So whenever I feel like, I write it out to that person.

Mom is back home after her trip to Rishikesh. And I am so proud of her. She is not all that out going and adventurous but I am glad she went and had a good time. She was out camping in the woods without electricity and she went till level4 of white water rafting!! Aint she cool! And I myself haven’t done that! Tut tut shame on me.

I feel the urge to get a D-90 but I fear I might be splurging unnecessarily. Well it’s not like I am going to make a career out of it. Ummm who knows ;) A girl can dream.

My day to cook so will head home soon. I fear I might develop a sore throat : (

Sudden changes :)

18th Feb ‘10
12.43
Well turns out it wasn’t a big deal yesterday. The one I was worrying bout unnecessarily. All is well! Yesterday was a pretty ok night. Sam had already cut veggies. Prons prepared the dinner. Aaloo sabji, which was edible, pretty good for starters! I prepared surnali batter after dinner. Sam helped me clean up later. Pretty decent chap. He keeps talking of reducing smoking and boozing.

14.04

I just checked my mail to which date was my return ticket booked, it was 04 Mar and I had a gleeful smile. Well if all goes as planned I should be returning after 8 working days!! :D

19th Feb ‘10

15.51
How things change in a day’s time?! 24 hours back I was certain to be packing by 4th. Now it’s not the same case. I think this change of fate is thanks to CR. Yesterday went from bad to worse to better. I feel bad for silly things. So I was hurt when A said something insignificant bout not talking in tulu. I say insignificant cuz I am over it now.

18.19
Well all is well now because I let it go. Yesterday after the very hectic noon as I was leaving I stopped at CR’s desk. She gave me some gyaan and I implemented some of it today. She advised never to lose hope and focus. If I want something I have to go for it. Plan for it. Research it and be prepared for it. She is so wise. She knew BT stuff too. I dint know how or why I ended up pouring my story out to her. But it happened and for the good I believe.

She suggested me to spend time with the dev and also the traders to understand things better. I suggested this to Cena, along with this I also mentioned he needed to talk to Dhamak regarding the next resource to come as I am leavin in 8 working days!! :D ( well not in so many words but you get the gist). He was having another catch up with M in the meantime. But I mde sure he got my mail before that. He has asked me to stay back if I have no probles and to tell dhamak the same. I said I shall ask him, and he says “No you tell him I told so”.

Well I shall go with the flow. I will think bout it over the weekend and see how to proceed. Planning to visit Cambridge. Lets see how that goes. And yes, finally nanny got it from me. I dint take shit when she started teasing. I told her in her face I don’t like her jokes. There! Done that!

I would like to write some stuff I have been thinking about but haven’t had the time. Weekend will not give me much access to comp so see you on Monday!

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive...

Another day...another story

13.01

Day is moving at a snails pace. I have never been in such good spirits while I’m PMSing: D It was a relief.

The sanna polo was ok, Could have been better. I took some blog’s advice and added tur dal a bit which I think caused difference in taste. Anyways this is how I will improve. Trial and error!

15.53

Lunch was a hearty discussion on Mon’s mallu dishes and my amchi dishes. I plan to make surnali for tomorrow.

16.55

How time flies. Mon showed me something which he said would surprise me. Well it shouldn’t have but it did. Remember CR I had mentioned earlier, well she is on the cyberspace a pretty much known children’s writer. Then I tumbled across her blog and so did he. I just went through it all and it made me happy to know a little bit more bout her. She writes really well. And I liked few of her posts. I loved this bit of her’s dealing with everyday problems

18.11

I am so scared. Well it’s not like I sinned but when its new I am scared for every move. There was a query which I replied to after an hour of contemplation. I am not sure what is to happen now or tomorrow. It had been peaceful 3 days. I can’t wait to get back home. And Mon told me at lunch that this application was a problem and never a plan to be off shored. You know, this particular work has never been fun. The stress that entails this has even affected my health. I can’t wait to get back home. I’ve already said that haven’t I? well what shall be, shall be.

Wicked and Happy!

Umm I thought I should clarify before i proceed. I am not feeling happy cause i am wicked. I just come up with random, off the top of my head titles. So here goes today's post


Ooh I’m feeling wicked. He ha ha. Guess what occurred to me. Well today is the DAY! All vendors have been locked out as the contracts I assume have not been renewed. So card access does not work. System access thankfully works though I would have preferred few things not working. Anyhoo we need our access cards to use the restroom (weird! I know!) So this morning when I went, I borrowed chudail’s card and I was kicking myself that I dint have my cell phone with me. Well no worries there. I went again noon now she’s been captured bwahahhaha.. I know that’s not nice thing to do but its not like I will be using it with ulterior motive!! I would just like to show people back home how the chudail is :) hummrph!
13.10
I am getting a bad headache. Yesterday I had my legs hurting like a b@”£*! Today it’s my day to cook, I wanted to make daalitoy and sanna polo. Well one less job as there is dal already thanks to the master curry prepared yesterday. Then I was going through some interesting amchi recipe blogs which had my mouth watering. I so wanna eat surnali!!!

Yesterday I had the craving for ccd chocolate fantasy.
14.15
And you know what else is good about today other than me being wicked? The office communicator is not functioning for me so that means no annoying pings from the chudail. I will be back after lunch. I will have it alone as Jeeves had taken Mon and Jon out to wagamama as tomorrow Jon is heading back to India. I was little hurt initially for a min or two but then I was back to my jolly self happily looking uo amchi recipes.

And I do NOT wanna call the acid factory guys. Yes that’s what I’ll call their company. As it’s the name of an acid :) Because chotu has been pissing me off big time! It won’t be long before I lash out.

15.30:
Back! Could not eat lunch properly as dal had dried up and the rice too, plus my wisdom tooth that is sprouting. Spoke to ma as she is leaving to b’lore tonight and delhi the day after. I have been reading lot of dilli mumbaiyya blogs which is making me wish to go there sometime soon. Also Ladakh! I have to have visit it! And its not just cause I am reading Jeffery Archer’s Paths of Glory. Can you beat this I am actually reading stuff on investopedia!! : )

Oh yesterday I went out with the gossip gal to McD’s aise hi. And she was as usual non-stop chatter but I was ok. I felt I needed to spend more time with people than with inanimate objects.

17.00
Its just 5 and I wanna go home already. Why doesn’t time fly now? Head ache seems to be easing a little after applying my fav axe oil. I don’t know what I would do without it.

18.24
Time to make a move. Not a bad day. I think it is only going to get better after this. On that note I will say adios!

The Nomad's post

I read this at Nomad's post and just loved it. I hope he doesnt mind me displaying it here. Not that anyone comes here anyways.

What if...

These English movies were to be made in Hindi

One who flew over the cuckoo's nest : Vo jo koyal ke ghonsle ke upar se uda
Raider's of the lost ark : Khoi hui kashti ke lutere
Silence of the lambs : Memno ki khamoshi
Rocky : Pathrila
Close Encounters of the third kind : Teesri tarah ki nikat muthbhed


These Bands were Indian

Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Lal garam hari mirch kali mirch
Backstreet Boys - Pichli gali ke launde
Megadeath - Shaandar maut
Iron Maiden - Lohe ki aurat
Soungarden - Bagh-e-awaaz
Rage against the machine - Yantra ke khilaf gussa
Smashing Pumpkins - Kaddu Fodna (Love this!)


These Songs were sung in Hindi

Jam (Michael Jackson) - Murabba
My heart will go on (Celine Dion) - Mera dil chalta rahega
Torn (Natalie Imbruglia) - Fata hua(LMAO!)
Get Down (Backstreet Boys) - Neeche aao
Smells like teen spirit (Niravana) - Kishor bhoot ki durgandh

Just another post....

Another Monday, Another day at work; Post Valentine’s Day, It was pretty much a regular weekend as this is how I’ve been spending them. Thankfully I never get bored with myself. Though it makes me realise how much a “people’s person” I am.

I’ve been reading Chandni’s and her boy the nomad’s blog.
I’ve been working as and when the issues have come.
I’ve been worrying as I am ten days late. And what is the first thing I do? I Google it! I just type “reason” and that was the first search that popped up. Mind you there is a difference between the “.co. in” and “.co.uk” for search results.
Anyways looks like stress could be my “reason”. I really hate it when I am late. And it’s worse as things are not under my control.

I should stop cribbing. I should thank god for what I have and just STFU.

Her story.

She sat alone. She stared out of the window at the gloomy sky. She lay on the bed staring at the ceiling. She stared at her phone wondering whom to call. She cleaned her room to keep her busy. She did everything at leisure to kill time. She dreamt about the future. She smiled and she cried. She felt unsure and she felt certain. She trembled and then she strengthened. She sketched sometimes. She was happy she did. She argued and agreed. She tried to sleep but sleep evaded her. She read and she listened to the sound around. She heard silence, she heard laughter, there were talks, there were giggles, there were questions and there was togetherness. But sleep evaded her despite music trying its best to soothe. She read again and she hardly slept. It was morning again. Another day to complete before she comes back to find solace in the room, Alone!

Friday at last...

Utterly useless people I say! How and why am I expected to work with such unprofessional people? Let alone being unprofessional they do not have basic manners! Or maybe M has driven them so crazy that they just want to stay away from all people associated with this application. Such a shame!

I despise approaching the dev team of this particular application cuz they are rude and horrible people. Ok maybe not all maybe just this one guy who thinks he is a big shot. Well I don’t wanna spoil my mood thinking bout him of all people.

Last night was a very funny night. Hasn’t been so funny n gross ever in London : ) !! I managed to cook some sabji. It was way too spicy and maybe that triggered some weird truth hormone in Jon and he was on a story telling spree. Very weird and gross one! Which we later turned into funny :) ! He spoke bout eating all different parts of animals, and what possible things he can eat! I DO NOT want to get into any of the details….Psst he has eaten a crow! I mean who eats a crow?! For crying out loud. Anyways Sam can be really funny. He was the butt of all jokes voluntarily.

I got a little pisd when nanny teased me again with chotu. But I gave it back not in full effect though but I will if she provokes me. Day has been OK. Need to sleep lots. And I don’t think I will have any laptops available tonight as the guys are not drinking as it is shivarathri.

Will head home now. Probably will blog over the weekend. Probably not.

Thursday!

What i couldn't think of anything and i have to rush so its just a thursday!


Hmmm Things seem to be going on fine. I dint have much time to put it all in one post yesterday and I am too lazy to get into it today *yawn*. Gajar ka halwa dint happen yesterday : ( because on the way home I realised we don’t have a grating plate. Anyways I do not have any plans to make it today as its my day to cook so I will be busy with dinner preparations. I have no clue what to make. Hopefully I will figure out something soon.

Yesterday’s meeting with Cena went well though we are still unsure bout how to proceed. Tomorrow he has a meeting with dhamak our client who works off shore. M is out of her freaking mind. Cena asked me to excuse her behaviour for the next few days as she might be upset regarding their bonus. Whatever! But it was fun watching the Gossip girl and M bicker over something silly.

I do not like the people over here much. I probably might have said the opposite judging after being in some good company but you know what they say right, one rotten apple can spoil the whole basket. Well in this case the basket is not spoilt but my view has changed. There are too many people pretending all the time and too much politics here. At least I was not so aware when I was back in B’lore.

OMG! Time just flew and I forgot to post. I was going thru amchi recipes for tonight but I guess I am settling for pulao. Hmm do you have any idea how difficult it is to cook for 14!! I doubt I will be able to do it in one go. So aiming for just the dinner. Let’s see how it goes.

W H A C K Y Quotes : )

The trouble with being punctual is that nobody's there to
appreciate it.
- Franklin P. Jones

We must believe in luck. For how else can we explain the success of
those we don't like?
- Jean Cocturan

It matters not whether you win or lose; what matters is whether I win or
lose.
- Darrin Weinberg

Life is pleasant.
Death is peaceful.
It's the transition that's troublesome.

Help a man when he is in
trouble and
he will remember you when he is in trouble again.

Complex problems have simple, easy to understand wrong answers.

It is not exactly cheating, I prefer to consider it creative problem
solving.

Whoever said money can't buy happiness, didn't know where to shop.

Alcohol doesn't solve any problems,but then again, neither does milk.

Most people are only alive because it is illegal to shoot them.

Forgive your enemies but remember their names.

The number of people watching you is directly proportional to the stupidity of your action.

Dont worry that the world ends today, its already tomorrow in Australia!

Woohoo Wednesday : )

It has been a good day. Yes it has, though it started off with M pestering me I handled it fine!

And the meeting with Dan finally happened though I am still uncertain about what is my fate here. I changed my mind. I do want to stay back some more time. It’s purely for a human reason. I need the money! I was shocked to see ma’s mail regarding my loan account. I had been paying off my education loan since quiet sometime but the interest had been piling up which was not updated in the statements.

But I will just leave it to God’s will now. Whatever has to happen, will happen. If I have to, I will just cut short my wish-list but I definitely will clear it off once I get back. Anyhoo I’m in the mood to make some carrot halwa so will rush home.

Until tomorrow : )

Didjya know?

1 MOPED is the short term for 'Motorized Pedaling'.



2. POP MUSIC is 'Popular Music' shortened.



3. BUS is the short term for 'Omnibus' that means everybody.



4. FORTNIGHT comes from 'Fourteen Nights' (Two Weeks).



5. DRAWING ROOM was actually a 'withdrawing room' where people withdrew after Dinner. Later the prefix 'with' was dropped..



6. NEWS refers to information from Four directions N, E, W and S.



7. AG-MARK, which some products bear, stems from 'Agricultural Marketing'.



8. JOURNAL is a diary that tells about 'Journey for a day' during each Day's business.



9. QUEUE comes from 'Queen's Quest'. Long back a long row of people as waiting to see the Queen. Someone made the comment Queen's Quest..



10. TIPS come from 'To Insure Prompt Service'. In olden days to get Prompt service from servants in an inn, travellers used to drop coins in a Box on which was written 'To Insure Prompt Service'. This gave rise to the custom of Tips.



11. JEEP is a vehicle with unique Gear system. It was invented during World War II (1939-1945). It was named 'General Purpose Vehicle (GP)'.GP was changed into JEEP later.



12. Coca-Cola was originally green.



13. The most common name in the world is Mohammed..



14. The name of all the continents ends with the same letter that they start with.



15. The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.



16. TYPEWRITER is the longest word that can be made using the letters only on one row Of the keyboard!



17. Women blink nearly twice as much as men!!



18. You can't kill yourself by holding your breath.



19. It is impossible to lick your elbow. (Please don’t try now)



20.. People say "Bless you" when you sneeze because when you sneeze, your heart stops for a millisecond.



21. It is physically impossible for pigs to look up into the sky. (umm hello We are talking about pigs!)



22. The "sixth sick sheik's sixth sheep's sick" is said to be the toughest tongue twister in the English language.



23. Each king in a deck of playing cards represents a great king from history.

>> Spades - King David

>> Clubs - Alexander the Great,

>> Hearts - Charlemagne

>> Diamonds - Julius Caesar.



24. Horse Statue in a Park...

>> If a statue of a person in the park on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle.

>> If the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died as a result of wounds received in battle

>> If the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural causes.



25. What do bullet proof vests, fire escapes, windshield wipers and laser printers all have in common? Ans. - All invented by women. (Way to go!)



26. A crocodile cannot stick its tongue out.



27. A snail can sleep for three years.



28. All polar bears are left handed.



29. Butterflies taste with their feet.



30. Elephants are the only animals that can't jump. (Thank god!)



31. In the last 4000 years, no new animals have been domesticated.
Why not? Probably if we had we’d have saved more tigers :) I would love to have cubs: D



32. On average, people fear spiders more than they do death.

(I Know!)


33. Shakespeare invented the word 'assassination' and 'bump'.



34. “Stewardesses” is the longest word typed with only the left hand.



35. The ant always falls over on its right side when intoxicated.
(So?!)



36. The electric chair was invented by a dentist.
(Now we know why he loves his job)



37. The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.


38. Rats multiply so quickly that in 18 months, two rats could have over million descendants.
(aaargh Save the world!)


39. Wearing headphones for just an hour will increase the bacteria in your ear by 700 times.
( uh oh :o hmmm )


40. If you sneeze too hard, you can fracture a rib. If you try to suppress a sneeze, you can rupture a blood vessel in your head or neck and die. (of all possible deaths!)



41. The cigarette lighter was invented before the matchbox.
(This has to be the Baap of invention)

42. Most lipstick contains fish scales.
(Eeeww)

Terrible Tuesday....NOT! :)

See it’s a sign! I give a google search for “accrued interest” and guess what the first result is? It’s a blog! Hinting me it’s the time of the day I start my Tuesday post.

How is Tuesday?
Its an angry furious one! Thanks to Chudail! Kameeni! Kalmui! I hope who chullu bhar paani mein doob mare! Aur itna thanda ho wo paaani!! Aaargh. I just end up thinking and not taking any actions!

Again they had a meeting, the same old pending one where they had to discuss on how this application will be offshored. And also her sob story about me. And its not that I am imagining that everything that goes about here is about me but this is! And Jon has admitted saying so.

Anyhoo Cena has said we’ll catchup tomorrow so hopefully he will finally listen to my side of the story. Well I have nothing much to sob about. Just facts to state.

I spoke to a director today again. I was nervous and this guy wasn’t the polite/patient kind. He kept shooting questions and by God’s grace I was able to answer correctly. But a funny thing happened. I had to spell out M and J for him so I said M for Market(like a trading market) and J for I couldn’t think of anything other than Jockey / joker. I settled for a feeble Jockey. Later while I was telling this to C I realised I could have said MJ like Michael Jackson! Aow! :D

Off I go now. Its almost 8 and it’s a cold world out there. Until tomorrow!

Magical Monday :)

Monday’s here! And look what we’ve got : ) ! No Monday blues, and most of all I am feeling cheery. That is strange as I wonder and walk past people with a smile I can’t hide.

How is the day going?
Not bad. I’ve been working and reading blogs in between. I love to multitask. I came across a variety of new ones. I love to read real life happy stories as much as I love fiction. I came across couple of teen blogs and it shocked me looking at the kind of language they use, the amount of fashion knowledge and the advancement this new generation has reached. I would like to consider myself as part of the present generation but every gap of 4-5 yrs has a new batch coming out and one can hardly relate of having been of the same age some years ago.

It’s not like I don’t swear, but the kind of abuse these 2 teens had in the comments section appalled me. And it was an argument bout fashion. Seemed so lame. Anyways I also came across a blog by a gay kid. I haven’t read one before so this will probably enlighten me in few matters. I read some bout a housewife, a pervert, a comic artist (he sketches and was into animation), an uptown chick what not. Well of course I do work but in between I do find time.

As for the teen blog i spoke about:
Is this how a spoilt “depressed” teen spends her birthdays?
READ: At the 'tender' age of fourteen, I was out getting drunk, smoking up, tripping on acid, hesitantly trying coke, hooking up, passing out, and living on the wild side.
For her sixteenthening: The Rs. 20, 008 bill that arrived at the end of the night was more scandalous than the whole night

Is this the wild side I want to experience? No! Is it something I would want any of my loved ones to try out? Definitely no! It makes me sad to see there are such people who probably put their parent’s through nightmares. She has had a tough life and seems she is bipolar. But that doest not justify the life she has chosen. Oh and the latest post showed her amazing Cam collection- Nikon D-50, D-40X, D-90 and canon S90. I am so jealous of you gal : ) I hope you find happiness and get out of that shit hole!

Miss R aka Gossip gal, half the time takes my name,talks to me but looks at Mon! Gimme a break !

Jon spoke to Cena now regarding the discussion pending since Friday. Well everyone has to fend for themselves. But he is so unprofessional! He shamelessly admits about the excuses he makes to take leaves. And not just that but also bout his future such endeavours! He says, that’s his excuse to get the release fro the project. And from what i've seen of him he justifies the hen-pecked husban he is. Gah! As for the excuse of "release" Well if he had the B*lls he should just put his papers.

Anyways that is all for today. I am off, I have to cook! tada

Guilty/Innocent

RULE 1: You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2: You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
RULE 3: Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends to answer this.

Asked someone to marry you? Innocent
Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Guilty/Innocent
Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent
Ever told a lie? Guilty
Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty
Kissed a picture? Guilty!!!
Slept in until 5 PM? Innocent
Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty
Held a snake?Guilty :)
Been suspended from school? Innocent
Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent
Stolen from a store? Innocent
Been fired from a job? Innocent
Done something you regret? Guilty
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? innocent (hmmm should try)
Kissed in the rain? Innocent
Sat on a roof top? Guilty
Kissed someone you shouldn't? innocent
Sang in the shower? Guilty.
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent
Shaved your head? Innocent
Had a boxing membership? Innocent.
Made a girlfriend cry? Guilty.
Been in a band? guilty.
Shot a gun? Guilty! :D
Donated Blood? Guilty :)
Eaten alligator meat? Innocent!!!!!
Eaten cheesecake? Guilty! Sinfully Guilty! :D
Still love someone you shouldn't? Innocent
Have/had a tattoo? Want to be guilty :P
Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty
Been too honest? Guilty
Ruined a surprise? Guilty(minor occasions).
Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn't walk afterwards? Guilty.
Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty
Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Innocent.
Joined a pageant? Guilty
Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Guilty
Had communication with your ex? Innocent
Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Innocent.
Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty!

No one to tag :)

Random muttering

Aisi ulji nazar unse hatt ti nahi
Daant se reshmi dor katt ti nahi
Umar kab ki baras ke safaid ho gayi
Kaari badari jawani ki chatt ti nahi
Walla ye dhadkan bhadne lagi hai
Chehre ki rangat udne lagi hai
Darr lagta hai tanha sone mein ji
Dil to bachcha hai ji
Dil to bachcha hai ji

is playing....I love this song..miss Hindi songs..have no idea whats the latest... :( gharwale are watching 3 idiots. and I had been watching HIMYM episodes that I had missed out since coming here. finally I'm done :) I also watched Lil of scrubs and the office...scrubs got me some sweet memories of the time I used to watch it...daily, back home, during college. And in The Office Jim and Pam make the cutest couple ever. I mean the way they get each other is superb.

Day was good. Woke by 11 lazily had English breakfast with pancakes and waffles. Then read little of the novel which is like my bed time story book these days. Not for kids though :D its bout vampire killings. No not the TWILIGHT kind! this is an Alex Cross book. James Patterson's Violets are blue. Its OK...I just need to get into the mode of reading. Like I read Suzanne's diary for Nicholas by the same author and I pretty much finished it fast. Well those initial days I had nothing else to do. And the book is closely associated with my room here I cant explain why.

Anyhoo, then after a nice shower I had plans of doing some shopping, a visit to parlor and lunch outside. But as no one other than chotu joined we had an interesting day out where I was right most of the times! Men just dont listen! they always believe that their sense of direction is always right! in 2 such instances I was right and he just failed to agree! Men!

Poor Sam had a bad experience at the bar today where he faced racism probably the first time ever! I dont blame him for getting sad and furious but the attitude he developed after that incident to treat Firang's the same way after going back is not correct. I mean by behaving the way they did is just immature and not gonna get you anywhere. Poor chap ! whoever he is that falls prey at Sam's mercy :)

Nothing else I guess to write. Chotu was checking blogs , I mean to sign up , it had me lil worried cuz I dont want him to be aware of mine. I take so many precautions. And I never blog from home either. Probably this will be the last ever from home I mean cuz next weekend Mon wont be going out anymore to party like this as his wife will be here.

Hmmm tab ki tab dekhenge. Another 3 weeks to go...

Darr lagta hai tanha sone mein ji
Dil to bachcha hai ji :)

Thank God It's Friday

It’s been a good Friday for me and I would like to say thank you God! Lets hope this is how my next 3 weeks here will go. Smooth and peaceful : ) .

There were little hiccups with A but it worked out ok with few msgs followed by a call. It doesn’t take much to make me smile and if you never even try that is just gonna piss me off more. Something like that happened as I was too upset to talk to him during office hours yesterday and he dint give it the required attention today despite knowing I was having a terrible week. Anyways its all ok now. Just OK.

I don’t like Nanny the landlady teasing chotu with me. It is blatantly obvious and I DO NOT LIKE IT! Yesterday he saw me being upset and give me a handful of chocolates from his bag saying he got it for me. I of course did not want to believe it. I mean its not like he already knew bout my shitty day. Anyways I don’t wanna give it too much a thought. If she does it again, I am gonna tell it on her face. I mean like almost everyone knows bout A.

Chuck it. I dunno what the plan is for this weekend. Probably I will sleep till late as I feel I need to de-stress. And also I need to shop. I am confused as to what all I need to shop. Cuz I can’t afford to miss out on one person and my family is huge! I mean my close family and friends. Tough shit!

Yesterday I was glad I spoke to C on reaching home. He had msgd goodnight so I called to check what was he doing up so late. Then obviously I sounded low and he did his best to cheer me up and it worked :) or else I would have spent the night sulking and crying over something so irrelevant.

Everyone has their own selfish motives. Thanks to AJ’s encouragement Mon is becoming too complacent and I dint like the way he handled the con call with RKG. RKG is a humble colleague of mine. He writes blogs too and wants to become a writer one day. A voracious reader! This reminds me I am lagging behind in my reading. I don’t spend much time with novels these days. Mostly going out, Chatting or staying in and watching movies.

Jon also has his motives, and he was checking up with M/Chudail regarding the meeting they were supposed to have today. It will probably decide mine and jon’s fate but I couldn’t care less. I have had enough of these people. Sometimes I hate the way I sound low. I cant even fake happiness.

That’s all for this week. Catch you on Monday!

Its all About being Me!

Few secrets bout me no one knows

*I take long time in the rest room. Not that I have a weak bladder or tummy. I dance : ) I don’t have any other place to do it : ) sometimes I just need to reassure myself that I still have got the moves :D

*To contradict the above, I may have a weak bladder, in cold conditions. :-/

*I get really annoyed if things don’t go as I want them to or are not in the place I left them.

*I hate being told what to do unless it’s from someone I respect/admire.

*I despise liars. They lose my respect the minute I catch them though I might never confront them with it.

*I am very neat when I am away from home. But in my own space I can be a mess. :D

*I am always nice to people. Even to people who do not deserve it!

*I talk a lot (inside my head). And almost 90% of the conversation is in English. (Even when it is with God)

*I hate to wait, though it takes very little effort to cajole me as long as you are in my good books.

*I hate being lonely.

*I am a people’s person. Though I profess that I am not! :D

*I get restless if I misplace something and can’t relax until I find it. I just HAVE to find it.

*With me, everything is personal! I might say its ok, smile/laugh it off, but I always take offence (at least 95% of the times).

*I hate perverts and molesters. I have cruel intentions when I think of them.
*When I say “Fine” it never is. I never mean it.

*I do not like being touched by people whom I am not that comfy with. Back off! (And the number of people I’m comfy with is small!)

*I hate secrets hidden from me. (But usually I get my way around)

*I am good at keeping secrets. You can never get it out of me if I have given my word.

*I dislike misuse of English grammar. I am tempted to correct people immediately and it takes all my will power to hold my tongue.

*I hate anyone wasting water. Typical ex: letting the water run all the while when you brush teeth. Come on haven’t u seen that ad in Doordarshan when we were kids!!Where they talk bout putting off lights and how precious the water is!

*I love being surprised in a nice way I mean.

*I don’t like interference while I cook unless I ask your help. But I don’t like you enjoying without a care while I cook either!

*I’ll never ask if I want something. You should understand!

*I hate being told I am wrong.

*I have the ability to keep my calm under the most stressing circumstances and most heated arguments.

* I also have the ability to raise my voice to be heard.

* I live on extremes. Either too calm or too angry : )

*I don’t swear easy unless its with R. (with her I swear for fun )

*I stick to my principles like its some military rule : )

*I might forgive but I never forget. Sometimes I don’t do both.

Hmmm that’s enough to disclose for the time being.

F-ing Day

That’s my problem! Everything is personal! Whether it was intended or not, whether it was offensive against me or the team, I really don’t give a shit. Its all fucking personal to me.I was just thinking that the things are improving that it will be better but Oh NO! that is not the case! I am caught up in between all these clowns! I have to sit here and take shit from these bloody fucking people. I know if I walk out of this room I wont be able to hold myself. This is just pathetic.

On M’s advise I drop the mail to dev team regarding an ongoing issue. And that fucking asshole comes back telling me to take M’s advise before mailing any issue to their small and busy team. What the fuck was she doing? Dint she know who this should go to before reviewing, editing and then asking me to drop the mail. I so badly wanted to reply. I should have just done it . But then I spoke to her regarding this asking if she has checked the mail. She has the nerve to say to ignore it.

She says don’t take it personally. That’s when I smiled cuz for me everything is fucking personal. I am not an illiterate fool who does not understand things. I make sure important mails are cross checked as I am still new to this and I don’t wanna get burnt. Before I leave if I ever meet him I am gonna tell it on his bloody face.

This is what drives me. My anger! But the worst part is I don’t even act on it. I wish I had and cc’d the whole world like he did. But that is fine. I was just saved from being the bitch.

All day I was feeling little dizzy. But now I am just seething under a calm façade. If anyone says I have anger at the tip of my nose I will agree cuz yes it is right there. I had called ma thinking I will ask her to talk to Gibbs or S.aka regarding my dizzy spells. But then I just ended up frustrated as she was going on and on bout this and that. Its just that I was not in the mood to discuss all that in the middle of work. I know I am being selfish but she dint ask if all was ok with Me, Instead she was arguing lame things bout my roomies purchasing fridge, TV and gas connection. Then I just gave up and thought not to worry her. I called A after lunch and he was busy. When he called again later I was in a worse state as I was reading that clown’s mail. This whole team here is a bunch of clowns. Nobody knows a thing and then they bitch that I am not up to date. Give me a couple of months and I can definitely have much more knowledge than these assholes.

Now Mon wants me to give a hand at his job. He could have asked Jon to do it right. I have my own set of deadlines to meet(tomorrow). What the fuck am I gonna do?

Well he dint ask me to do. Cuz by the time I got done with my work he was done too. I just want to be alone here for sometime. I hope he leaves soon.

He did.

Cena had forgotten his wallet so he came back and he took a minor update from me. I told in short my present position. Hopefully things will be better soon.

I don’t like fast movements. I dunno what is wrong with me. I am eating enough, I probably have gained a lot of weight or maybe I am just hallucinating every time I look down to check the weighing machine. I hate these dizzy spells. Everytime I get up too fast from the bed or swivel the chair or move my head it starts spinning around. I should have given Gibbs a call. Lets see probably if I rest more this weekend everything should turn out fine.

It was a busy day, as I dint have much time to surf at all. Dint even read a single post. I was supposed to get partner’s address for P. she wanted to send him a card for Valentines. He is worthless fool. I can only imagine what he must be up to now knowing exactly how most of the guys mind works.

Time to Leave!

Sessions!

2nd Feb ‘10
I am so blank that I cannot think straight of what to write so I am writing this exactly as I am thinking. It was a better day cuz I told myself when I started this day I wont let anything make me sad. I was very disturbed and upset last night when I learnt that the meeting with Cena, Jon and Chudail was regarding the application I am handling. She was expressing her “concerns”. I felt there was no point any more in trying but then I don’t give up that easy. I will try to rectify whatever damage has been done.

Tomorrow I have a meeting with chudail. Gah! This has become my favourite word now. Gah! But I will get back to the meeting tomorrow and update

3rd Feb ‘10
You know there is a story behind “Gah!” now. Here it is-> Gah!
Well the meeting is just about to begin. I finished with Jon sometime back. I feel I could have done better if I knew more. But nobody has ever given me any KT so how am I supposed to know. I badly wanted to get a coffee and I kept putting off. Now I don’t have it cuz Benugo, our canteen downstairs is closed at 5.30! who closes at 5.30 man!

Today the chudail asked me to query the database for some data some third person wanted. I’m like her P.A. she assumes. And she has the nerve to tell me to inform her at the earliest if I can’t do that and she wont get angry at me. Aaargh what am I? A kindergarten kid?! Anyways despite being technically challenged I was able to get it. HA HA! Anyways done with the so called meeting. She stuttered most of the way. Most of her answers were “you don’t need to know that right now” or “I myself don’t know bout it”. Anyways hopefully I’ll get somewhere after a couple of more sittings and a boring read through “investopedia”.

Eating Clementines singing “tu jaane na…”. Actually different songs were running through my head. Morning “where is the love” probably that was the last song I heard today. Then also Maathinalli… Listening to songs has helped me a lot. Thinking of dance also makes me feel better. Now the gossip queen is on the roll. Though I would love to bitch bout chudail I would rather not waste my time here.

Off I go. I hope Pixie visits me someday. I have stolen so many tags from her :D and she was on blogspot earlier!

A 100 Something!

Picked up this tag from Pixie again!
Since, it meant just talking some more about me! I thought – why not!!

LAST TIMES…
1. Last beverage: McD Vanilla Milkshake
2. Last phone call: Spoke to A
3. Last text message: “Oi! I wasn’t ol for long today. . Goin to bed now. Stay warm. Oh btw I’ve bet 5k wit Sanath tat I’ll lose my tummy by 1st April gotta start on it from tomo” from my Che. (I’m mad at him for not calling)
4. Last song you listened to: Fall to pieces-Avril Lavigne
5. Last time you cried: Yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER…
6. Dated someone twice: Umm haven’t dated much.
7. Been cheated on? : By friends? Some times!
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? : Nope
9. Lost someone special? : Maybe.
10. Been depressed? : At times.
11. Been drunk and threw up? : Unfortunately Yes! :D

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Black
13. White
14. Red
15. Peacock blue

FIRSTS :
16. Made new friends: All the time!
17. Fallen out of love: yeah…
18. Laughed until you cried: Yes
19. Met someone who changed you: yes.
20. Found out who your true friends were: yes
21. Found out someone was talking about you: Yup. I just happen to come across such info irrespective of me wanting to know it/not!

HAVE YOU:
22. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list: What kind? ;) Duh Yeah…Most of the close ones.
23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: most of them…
24. How many kids do you want to have: one!
25. Do you have any pets: no. but I’d love to have cats :)
26. Do you want to change your name: Nope! I love my name :)
27. What did you do for your last birthday: Usual not so surprising surprise cake cutting ritual with roomies and friends, Went out for dinner with A after work.
28. What time did you wake up today: early – 6.30 AM
29. What were you doing at midnight last night: Crying silent tears and listening to music which made me feel a lot better later!
30. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Going back to India. Nothing worthy of me here! Gah!
31. Last time you saw your father: Hmm long back, probably August 1st 2009!!
32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: My job!
33. Most visited web page: Jira! google, FB, gmail, blog, office web page

WHAT’S YOUR :
34. Name: Tigress
35. Nicknames: meow, on the blog… and a few others
36. Zodiac sign: Virgo
37. Male or female or transgender : female
38. Elementary: done in Udupi
39. College: again, studied in Udupi
40. Hair color: naturally brown (there you go I finally accept! I always had a problem with that)
41. Long or short: I have weird wavy hair – usually it’s shoulder length – now, its longer…
42. Height: 5’6”
43. Do you have a crush on someone? : Currently, probably some actor but not in the mood to think who.
44. Ever been in love? : Yep... I always am.
45. Piercings? : Ears.
46. Tattoos? : I want one! I think I have said that a zillion times
47. Righty or lefty: righty
48. First surgery: none. Yet.
49. First piercing: When I was prolly a month o 2.
50. First best friend: that I can remember was way back in 2nd std. Chubbi. I doubt if she knew.
51. First sport you loved: shuttle badminton
52. First pet : Cat
53. First vacation: Prolly to Shimoga…
54. First concert: I attended? I think it was a zakhir hussain one.
55. First crush: has to be Rafe aka Zafar of Hip hip hurray

RIGHT NOW:
56. Eating: Clementine(C*s the A*s says there are mandarines,clementines,tangerines-to me they are oranges. But I like Clementine cuz they are tiny and cute. )
57. Drinking: Water
58. I’m about to: Catch up on work!
59. Listening to: nothing – except the key boards chattering around me
60. Waiting for: this month to be over

YOUR FUTURE
61. Want kids? : yup…
62. Want to get married?: not very sure.
63. Careers in mind? : Dancer, writer, photographer

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
64. Lips or eyes: both
65. Hugs or kisses: both
66. Shorter or taller: Taller!
67. Older or Younger: Mature and Wise
68. Romantic or spontaneous: both.
69. Nice stomach or nice arms: both
70. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
71. Hook-up or relationship: relationship.
72. Trouble maker or hesitant: neither, I think.

HAVE YOU EVER :
73. Kissed a stranger: No!
74. Lost glasses/contacts: Nope. Just have one and its still surviving
76. Broken some one’s heart: Yea…It’s the saddest thing.
77. Had your own heart broken: Not really.
78. Been arrested: nope!
79. Turned someone down: yes…a handful
80. Cried when someone died: yes.
81. Liked a friend that is a girl? I like most of my “girl friends”, but not in the way you mean!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
81. Yourself: Wholly!
82. Miracles: Yes. I call it Faith!
83. God: Yes.
84. Love at first sight: Its called Lust!
85. Heaven: yea – it’s here – you experience heaven and hell here on Earth before passing on.
86. Santa Claus: Umm No.
87. Kiss on the first date? : Definitely No. I am a little old fashioned that way.
88. Angels: yes… all kinds
89. Devils: sure.. I know a lot of them. Esp a SHE-Devil in my proximity. Gah!

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
*again, haven’t lied till here!*
90. Is there one person you want to be with right now? : Yes.but a one too many : )
91. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? : Yes. (Not in the form of infidelity)
92. Wanted to kill someone ever? : yea.. the SHE-Devil! And a few others probably!
93. Among your blog mates, whom would you like to kiss? : Umm nobody, cuz its an undisclosed blog
94. Committed a blunder and regretted later? : lot of times. Mainly at work.
95. Wanted to steal your friend’s boyfriend / girlfriend? : Eh.. No!

ASSOCIATE WITH SOMETHING YOU WEAR :
96. White: Dupatta
97. Black: Dress
98. Red: Saree
99. Pink: Tee
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? : no! Just “100 Somethings!!”
There, done! I tag anyone and everyone who has the patience or the afternoon to do this tag!!

Dizzzzzy

I feel Dizzy. I was feeling dizzy yesterday too. Today I can understand the reason, probably lack of eating. But yesterday despite having little breakfast and lunch I was dizzy. And I don’t like it. I am not a weakling. So I don’t like it. It was a lazy weekend. Didn’t do anything much at all. Even in dreams sometimes I see my mails in red and fear having to “follow up” .

Everyone tells me not to take sh*t from M. To give it back to her but it does not work that way for me. With great difficulty I manage to do it but then again she puts all her responsibility on my head so…that ain’t helping. Anyhoo I handled today morning pretty well as it was majorly hectic! I even managed to speak to a trader (who was a Director) despite being apprehensive. He was pretty ok so went well for me. I was just reading an article now when your best just isn’t good enough and I was all down before reading it. Now I feel a bit ok. Few things were bit aggressive for me, I mean I cant take that kinfd of action but I liked what he said in the end.

Its not like my life is dependent here on this project or that I want to stay here for the next 5 or 10 yrs. Its just a little respect and appreciation I wish I would get, for what I am putting here everyday. I feel disheartened that someone else’s opinion will be the deciding factor bout my work.

Weekend we watched 3-4 movies.
Dasavathaaram
Ayan which I dint watch completely as I had to chat with my roomies in B’lore where major fight happened.(will get back to it later)
Aayirathil_Oruvan even this I watched in bits as watching 3 tamil movies in a day was too much for me.
What Happens in Vegas was good
The Accidental Husband was ok. Liked the guy Jeffery Dean Morgan and it had a lot of Indian essence in it.
We also downloaded The invention of lying
I am keen to read The time traveller’s wife. And then watch the movie.

She loves to make my life miserable. Well I have two DM wholenut bars to drown my misery in. Off I go home. Rest of the stuff tomorrow.