Monday blues

I've become like a machine. Wake up, brush, watch tv, eat breakfast a bit, shower, get ready hit the road, reach office, work like a donkey, and then head home frustrated and exhausted. The only emotions i show are anger and blank expressions. Sometimes i fear people around me will read my blank face so i pretend to smile and laugh to all that they say. Nod and agree no matter what.

I do not like what i have become but sometimes feel like i've no choice. Its getting late and i should probably head home but tough luck. My whole body hurts thanks to the weekends' activities and i'm starved already. I dont want to think bout dirty dishes or bout tomorrows issues. I dont want to think bout those thoughts which have been bothering me. I just want to sleep happy. I keep waking and texting at weird hours. I need a break.

AD in th noon itself told i look beat and probably need to go back to london and i wanted to mock and say really?! you think!

He asked for a quick catch up and i hate it. People are anyways talking shit bout his association with girls thanks to chuhiya's advances. And the last thing i need on my mind is association with him. Just briefed him on the stay and i did mention few people were difficult. But then I dint give names. He asked if i'd like to travel again I said probably later. Not right now.

I think i'll make a move in the next few mins. Have had enough.