Complicated

Uh huh
Life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh
That's the way it is
'Cause life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh
That's the way it is.


Ok so Life's like this. I accept it the way it is. I made alot of choices. I'm living with it now. I accept I'm a workaholic. I accept I'm an obsessive compulsive creature. It pisses me off to see my things not in the place where I originally left them, It pisses me off to see water running and wasted while you stand in front of the sink brushing, it pisses me off to listen to stupid men talk like misogynists. It pisses me off when colleagues I work with day to day give me a once-over. I'm not pissed off at life. Its just the little things.


Of course its again the little things that make me happy/smile. It makes me happy to be wearing good clothes. I Know when I look good even if no one tells me so. I think feeling beautiful is more important than being told or anyone trying to convince you that you are. I feel happy when my cooking is appreciated. Yes, I've begun cooking again after a long time and I feel good. I felt happy for a change to see the sun had not yet set when I left office on Tuesday. I felt happy to see the rains and also it stopped timely till I made it home without getting drenched. I was ecstatic when R called to tell me she is getting 100% scholarship for her higher studies. Also I was a little sad that I wont be able to do it. I have learnt to accept things as they are. I have learnt not to dream big, but to have faith I'll be self sufficient. 


I think this post is boring wit a lot of "I's , well I needed to talk. So dont you judge me. Work is going ok. Talking to ma pretty often. I really need to get a good phone/mp3 player. Phone is all the more in a screwed up state. Also need earphones. I cut my finger on all three consecutive days. I remembered the boys while cooking. Well 2 of them are coming back this month. Sam maam is getting married, but i doubt I can attend the function. :( Siva's hopefully will make it. And I think I should sleep. I miss being a little girl who had to wake up and walk to school. Who used to get two months of long summer vacations. hmmm...Life goes on...