Home Alone

How many times did I wonder and long for this? I cant recall..but am I faring fine in this affair? I think I'm doing a pretty decent job. But outside this realm if I were in my own set up I don't know how that would turn out. I'm getting better health-wise. Lot of things changed since Thursday. I was home alone too and it felt pretty much depressing. I dint cook dinner, had corn-flakes and tried to keep myself busy with music and series.

Friday was actually fun at work. I've started mixing with my colleagues which I never used to before. I realized how much of a peoples' person I am no matter how much I deny it. Even at home though I hole up in my room, I have my reasons. Even then I'm pretty much aware of the people around me and what they are talking.

Due to inevitable reasons I had to drop my plans to Shim which was really sad. But I think this makes a lot of things clear. I've got a lot of "me-time". I have slept loads, more than on any weekend in the last two years. Maybe its the cough syrup, but I dint even have it today and I slept much more than my "awake" hours. I have time to blog in leisure. I did miss dance.

Oh I dint tell you bout what happened at F mall yesterday, where I did Loads of grocery shopping. The owner there was hovering around assisting which he had never done before. Then I thought maybe he is waiting for me to wish him Eid, which I did after billing. Then he asked me if I would be performing the ITC show on Monday. gee I felt like a celeb :-D Well I wont be, as i will be working...

What else, what else....I cooked yummy homey food yesterday. Rice, rasam and beans upkari. I watched lots of T.V. I actually surfed v.little. Then I thought of going to this peaceful and quiet temple near my place as it being Ganesh Chaturthi , but It was not so. There were loads of people and pooja in full swing, which made me miss shim alot more. Then I went to Cafe Lounge. The ccd has been transformed to Cafe Lounge. I missed having a Cam then. I had an Assam tea(se) and Chocolate fantasy(fudge) while reading Many Lives Many Masters which I found to be a lot of Bull-crap. I can digest Paulo Coehlo's fictional philosophies better than what I read in this book. Don't know why Gub bothered buying this.

It was pretty deserted and dark the walk back home but I felt confident somehow despite the apprehensions. Cafe Lounge ambience is nice, dint find the tea and cake any different, service was good. Music instrumental, suited my mood as I dint want to listen to the same numbers I always listen to. Hmm but then I'm not a fan of change so I still miss the Ccd effect :)

And I never thought I would say this, But I think I'm beginning to like Sallu, cant wait to watchDabangg !!

OK I think enough said for today.

3 more Mondays to go...:(

Ah another day has come to an end. I am sick of writing how hectic it was. But then I need to vent! I need I need! Where else shall I go. Hmmm.

It started off like a pain in the wrong place. Too many issues and just my two frail hands! But anyways I handled them well. Though chudail tried to make my day miserable I hit the ignore button. And that by far is the best decision I have taken in the past 3 months. It was a relief. Anyways I haven’t eaten much and I am craving for good food. I do have a bar of snickers in case I feel I’m gonna pass out :p

Weekend was….it just was. Dint do anything much. Saturday was rolling in bed all day due to a bad case of headache. Popped a tab and was fine later. I finished Cecelia Ahern’s If you could see me now. Initially I was of the opinion I will not like it. But then It was a good book. Unnecessarily lengthy at some points but otherwise it was nice. The concept of invisible people, ghosts don’t sit well with my idea of reading even though it’s a fiction. But some books are good enough to make an impression. I never thought I would like the mediator series by Meg Cabot but I did. But that was years ago. I feel ancient. (Mediator series is the story of this teenager who shifts with her family to a new place and there is a ghost in her room. A nice good looking one at that :D )

Sunday also went in passing. Was online for sometime. Read alot. Shopped DKNY perfume for Sam. Very belated gift. He liked it nevertheless. SK has come from B'lore so another member in the house
I feel like reading them again, I feel like going back to childhood. I have been thinking bout this a lot for the past few days. Trying to re-live the good times.

I was thinking of writing a few other things but I want to just go home and crash. More on Goa plans, my return, shopping plans*dread*, and few other thoughts. Hopefully I’ll have time considering I’ll be giving KT at this hour tomorrow.

Sunshine and gloom

Ah what a day. I was not just on my toes but on my finger tips and what not. So many issues! I have never had such a mentally draining day. By the time I finally decided to take a lunch break it was 4 and I dint even feel like eating it. I can’t see the point of working like this. Away from home and my people. Hmmm

Finally Cambridge happened, and had a good time. Though we ended up spending more time in eating it was a fun day. And my camera took better pictures than Sam’s 12mp cybershot Bwahahhaa :) Then yesterday was not the right day to go to the London’s Burrough market as everything was closed by the time we went. It was bright and sunny but damn cold. Finally walked the queen’s walk! A well spent weekend. Come to think of it, it has been an expensive week. Plus plans of Paris in motion I don’t know what to decide. I don’t feel like missing the opportunity but this time I feel I have spent too much what with the increase in rent and all. Hmmm anyways let’s see.

Spoke to Arnn, and it felt nice to listen that the troop esp the gals were missing me. :) Hmmm :(


The kite runner as expected is evoking different emotions from me. Like it so far! I just wanna go home. Was talking to mum and she was frying capsicum bonda. She was like you would tell to make na weekends :) I feel v.homesick.

I have mixed feelings about what I want and what I should do. I feel like I am in a place where I have no choice, no opinion and no certainty. I do not like what I think and I am not in a place to decide the right things. And definitely when I read this sometime later I will not make sense to myself. It has been a long day. Too much on my mind, need to do something to relax. Until tomorrow.

*sigh*s and a few others...

Yesterday was a little too upset to write anything coherent. It feels better today. Actually was a little ok after a few laughs at home followed by cooking and some music in the room. I was too tired to read so slept off earlier that usual. Oh I am reading the kite runner. It’s fine so far, I hope I don’t get moody like when I had read “A Thousand Splendid Suns”.

The previous one I read in like three days and its amazing considering I had slowed down after coming here. It was a good book. I mean somewhat along the lines of a movie that could be shot in London say with Gerard Butler as the guy and hmmm I can’t think who could fit the role of the gal. I seem to be inclined towards Katherine Heigl, but it’s nothing to do with their pairing in The Ugly Truth.

Anyways yesterday few unexpected things happened. Like I spoke to him; well I was talking to Ma and she asked if I wanted to and I blurted the usual no and hung up soon. Immediately felt guilty and called back and spoke a few words. Was not that hard to do now, was it? But well it’s a tough decision every time.

Something that made me smile today:
hi,gud morning.
sorry no mails cause no new news too.gud you prep all now.surnali u need to put majjige and phov and methi all .may as too cold it didnt get well perhaps..still hope it was sweet to eat.nice cook u r now. next u can prep wen u r here.
life same.thanks for callin yest.did not expect.ya hope to see u during ajjas anniversary.u tc.god bless u


Hmm its EOD already and I am still here. It seems Cena asked Mon why am I staying in office so late even after he(Cena) has left office. Oh I dint mention na yesterday he was nice to me and he was telling me to show some attitude. He he….yes and he also said that I should speak up and not suffer in silence. Well lets see bout that. There has been so much work since yesterday that my head is all muddled. I sooo need a break. *sigh*

*long sigh*

Thoughts

It has been a stimulating day at work. Stimulating I say because issues have been pouring at a moderate pace and I have been able to sort it out in time. Feels good for a change that there is no scope for nagging!

Have you ever come across times when you feel like ripping your arm out just to have something to throw at some annoying creature? Well I have! Not that I am likely to rip my arm out like Joey, but almost the same sentiments. C*s laughs continuously like a dorky pig.

Why can’t I learn to be more tolerant of him?! Well not that I am rude to him or anything of that sort. But its not just one or two things, he is plain annoying. The smell of the food that he gets from weird places, PURE nausea!

The way he boasts about how the universe will come to stand still if he does not move a finger.

I think I should stop wasting my time writing nonsense bout this loser.

I miss little silly things.
Like applying sindoor after praying.
Like eating chaats.
Like giggling away to gossip late nights.
Like having friends just one msg away.
Like calling mom to ask recipes(haven’t done that in a long time now)
Like my routine every weekend.

Hmm chuck it I don’t wanna get in too deep. I have been having this crazy idea of doing this stunt I cant describe. Its like doing a back bridge but instead of going backwards its done with a somersault followed by a back bridge.You can check it out here

Anyhoo Its my day to cook. Probably making kulita kodhel. Kulit=horsegram. And I started reading me and mr.Darcy by Alexandra Potter yesterday. Infact was up till late despite the fever. Had taken a tab but sleep seemed to evade me.

You know I spend half the time worrying. I hate the person I am turning into!

Rant

I’m not feeling all that great. I don’t wanna fall sick. I had been showing signs of cold since Saturday. Now, kind of feverish too! This is so not cool. And to top it work was kinda hectic and chudail was making my life miserable. Anyways Ira was good to me. She is nice. Interesting life too.

Last weekend again Cambridge plan went down the drain. I still haven’t found another place to stay. I have no back up. Everything seems so bleak. Dint sleep much last night. Woke up early. Whole weekend I was with Prons laptop. And yesterday he single-handedly completed the feat of dinner preparation. He did a good job. Day before Sam did. They are really improving. 2 new guys have come. Dunno how we gonna manage after this. I need to negotiate with nanny. Cant wait for the month to end. To top it all things are getting worse with the currency value dropping for pounds. It couldn’t have been worse! Its Rs.68 now!

Hmm I think I should just go ahead and buy the laptop here. Yea I will end up screwing up my sleep. And some weekends probably. But atleast I can blog whenever I feel like. Chat or talk to people when I want to instead of sulking in the room. And slao I am seriously contemplating about D90. Lets see.

Bout my WP account, the story was reviewed by 4 different people who read different things. Its common result was nice. Nice according to me is not a compliment. Its something someone says just to be “nice” Lol! Anyways A said it was top rate but I could have left out the timestamp and not confused the reader with calling both guys as “He”. Otherwise it was good for a first timer. C and R reviewed almost at the same time. C said the same regarding one of the particular paragraphs where I could clear it out regarding the men. He was ok with the timestamp. He liked the helplessness described. R said it was little mysterious and gives the reader free rein to imagine. (Though she did ask about the bright light) So did S! I had to explain to him that it was because he was the dead Guy.!! :D Anyways he said it had many breaks and missing links.

Well my point was I dint want to write a lengthy story. It had to be short and mysterious. Few things had to left unsaid as it was the readers right to imagine the situation. Also I dint use names because it was His and Her story. (Also I was lazy because I know it would take a long time for me to settle down happily with 3 perfect names. Please don’t ask what are they…Its just that it’s tough to decide certain names that fit the character)

I am not saying its perfect, but I know what people think now, and how they like to modify it. For now it’s alright. I am not gonna edit the post. If the reader has to read twice to understand, so be it :) ! It’s an OK read per my standards. And its pure fiction !  Maybe after a few posts I’ll make it a viewable blog to friends.

Yesterday was planning out rishikesh trip with C. Cant wait to get back and make it happen. Also gotta go Goaaaa!!! Like last time…lets see how it all pans out.

My eyes hurt. Had been reading Chandu’s post. Its kinda cute and refreshing. Bout her and her boy. I dunno how does she manage to have an open blog under her own name and still discuss everything she feels like. Well I haven’t come across where she has cribbed bout people around so I guess that way it is safe. The problem with me is I have an opinion about everything and I definitely cant afford to make this public. I would like to know Pixie too. Wells so far I think I have come close to all posts by Rayshma, Pixie and Chandni aka Chandu.

Oooh I did not mention the highlight of the day. Mon got membership in the Library. I become a total kid-in-a-candy-shop happy when I go to a library. And I already picked 4! I know I am greedy but whatever makes me happy :D I’ve got Echo burning by Lee child, The kite runner by hosseni, me and r.Darcy by someone and another one by Cecelia Ahern of the p.s. I Love You fame.

Friday Yay!!

Well I do have a few things to share….I tried my hand at a paneer dish yesterday. I dint know what to call it until I finished preparing. Finally I named it shaahi paneer :D It turned out well and everyone loved it. I was so happy!! :D

Today I wore my bright pink kurta to office! I was tired of the same old sober colour formals. It’s a little saddening to be looked down upon by other Indian Chicks who are prim and properly dressed in western formals. But who cares. I am happy. And I love to get tongues wagging :p

I am weird in that way.

Anyhoo I dared to go out to the library with Mon without the coat. It was and still is windy. There is an emergency door behind me which has some opening like a tiny gap so we can hear the wind howling and it gets creepy at times. And every time I try to record it on the phone it slows down and stops. It got me bugged. So I stopped.

Here I go , I am digressing again. Well the library is awesome. And the membership is FREE!! This is one thing I love bout this place. Free books and newspapers. And most of the people are found reading on buses and tubes. I can stay here for a long long time if I don’t tire of the books. I feel bad to have wasted three months. I used to pass by this library everyday!! Well I did have other books to read though.

Gossip gal has pinged me. She has gone home back to India still she logs in. Workaholic! Anyways she is bitching bout chudail and I am in no mood right now. Well I spoke to her all is well.

Gotta go. Its Friday and I wanna go home!