Experience Uncertainty

2010.03.09
Back to square one. I was gonna say that what if your good isn’t good enough.

Well then I feel I was my best today and it was more than good enough.

2010.03.10

Another day, another set of issues, same old faces, same old thoughts, the same old wishful thinking and waiting for the day to end. No worries as she has not been around. Uncertainty is still in the air. Leaving everything to fate does this. Well I am not blaming fate cuz I have been given the choice and well this is where I am now. I wrote a lot yesterday. For change this one was for me. And there was so much to pen. I guess being busy in office and not blogging had got me worked up.

Time to go, maybe will pen at home :)

Ha the title.. Bwahahaha... so much in the name of my company...

Sudden changes :)

18th Feb ‘10
12.43
Well turns out it wasn’t a big deal yesterday. The one I was worrying bout unnecessarily. All is well! Yesterday was a pretty ok night. Sam had already cut veggies. Prons prepared the dinner. Aaloo sabji, which was edible, pretty good for starters! I prepared surnali batter after dinner. Sam helped me clean up later. Pretty decent chap. He keeps talking of reducing smoking and boozing.

14.04

I just checked my mail to which date was my return ticket booked, it was 04 Mar and I had a gleeful smile. Well if all goes as planned I should be returning after 8 working days!! :D

19th Feb ‘10

15.51
How things change in a day’s time?! 24 hours back I was certain to be packing by 4th. Now it’s not the same case. I think this change of fate is thanks to CR. Yesterday went from bad to worse to better. I feel bad for silly things. So I was hurt when A said something insignificant bout not talking in tulu. I say insignificant cuz I am over it now.

18.19
Well all is well now because I let it go. Yesterday after the very hectic noon as I was leaving I stopped at CR’s desk. She gave me some gyaan and I implemented some of it today. She advised never to lose hope and focus. If I want something I have to go for it. Plan for it. Research it and be prepared for it. She is so wise. She knew BT stuff too. I dint know how or why I ended up pouring my story out to her. But it happened and for the good I believe.

She suggested me to spend time with the dev and also the traders to understand things better. I suggested this to Cena, along with this I also mentioned he needed to talk to Dhamak regarding the next resource to come as I am leavin in 8 working days!! :D ( well not in so many words but you get the gist). He was having another catch up with M in the meantime. But I mde sure he got my mail before that. He has asked me to stay back if I have no probles and to tell dhamak the same. I said I shall ask him, and he says “No you tell him I told so”.

Well I shall go with the flow. I will think bout it over the weekend and see how to proceed. Planning to visit Cambridge. Lets see how that goes. And yes, finally nanny got it from me. I dint take shit when she started teasing. I told her in her face I don’t like her jokes. There! Done that!

I would like to write some stuff I have been thinking about but haven’t had the time. Weekend will not give me much access to comp so see you on Monday!