Decisions

I fear if I have made the wrong decision. If I should maybe pack my bags and run while I still have the chance. But I don’t wanna chicken out. I am getting aggressive as days go by. And that my friend is not a good sign. As I’ve been told earlier I live on extremes. I don’t know what will happen when I am pushed to the core now.

Gah! I finally got done with the nonsensical thing pending since last night, which I was worrying about unnecessarily. Well I worry constantly don’t I! Well I just don’t want to regret after going back that I lost an opportunity to do right by myself. I just have to keep faith going strong and walk on.

Easing the tension, lets talk about less tense stuff. Like C*s is back. Hope that chudail decides to steam off at his expense. Am I being mean? Hell, who cares! They both deserve each other. (Though I did hear his human side today while he was talking to his kid, it doesn’t count. Well I melt at such stuff…) what else, yes I have started writing again. That helps a lot when I am brooding in the room. The thing is I talk in my head. A lot! So whenever I feel like, I write it out to that person.

Mom is back home after her trip to Rishikesh. And I am so proud of her. She is not all that out going and adventurous but I am glad she went and had a good time. She was out camping in the woods without electricity and she went till level4 of white water rafting!! Aint she cool! And I myself haven’t done that! Tut tut shame on me.

I feel the urge to get a D-90 but I fear I might be splurging unnecessarily. Well it’s not like I am going to make a career out of it. Ummm who knows ;) A girl can dream.

My day to cook so will head home soon. I fear I might develop a sore throat : (