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Well I've been busy, like really busy and I dunno where time goes. Weekend was good, did I put up a post? I dont remember. It was tiring, lot of body ache etc but fit and fine now. Work has been the usual noon shift, hectic and busy. Yesterday I scooted off early thanks to Ani, as we had planned roomy dinner, as a farewell to Fooz who will be getting married soon. We had been to Kabab Studio. It was good, too pricey for a buffet where I dint even eat its worth. But it was a good outing.

Also on the talks of getting hitched, R called me yest to tell "something" and I was like "Dont tell me you too are getting hitched?!!" Well its not out officially yet, but soon in Dec they will be engaged. I was ecstatic hearing the new, v.happy for her. And she will become an Aussie soon Boo!...hmmm everyones getting hitched...thats all. Tada

The weekend that was...

I did a lot of things over the last weekend. A lot more independently. Which makes me feel good. Cooked breakfast, chatted with my roomy, went and booked tickets for Dabangg, met up with a couple of friends and had  a wonderful time, long drive, some awkward conversation, nice time chatting up with my sister(whom i have the urge to pamper), then back and the movie, which btw is hilarious time-pass, totally loved Chulbul pandey and the songs, followed by a late night ride by three girls on a pink scooty, being stopped by namma chulbul pandey, tackling him with our kannada and then home ending with a long convo with C. And thats a pretty long sentence I must say. 


Today was not all that great, lot of work, all alone plus being unwell, but not bad. 


Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know I'll be alright
It's just overkill

Sorry I got carried away with the song. Oh and mommy sent a lot of goodies so me is all happy happy. 

Home Alone

How many times did I wonder and long for this? I cant recall..but am I faring fine in this affair? I think I'm doing a pretty decent job. But outside this realm if I were in my own set up I don't know how that would turn out. I'm getting better health-wise. Lot of things changed since Thursday. I was home alone too and it felt pretty much depressing. I dint cook dinner, had corn-flakes and tried to keep myself busy with music and series.

Friday was actually fun at work. I've started mixing with my colleagues which I never used to before. I realized how much of a peoples' person I am no matter how much I deny it. Even at home though I hole up in my room, I have my reasons. Even then I'm pretty much aware of the people around me and what they are talking.

Due to inevitable reasons I had to drop my plans to Shim which was really sad. But I think this makes a lot of things clear. I've got a lot of "me-time". I have slept loads, more than on any weekend in the last two years. Maybe its the cough syrup, but I dint even have it today and I slept much more than my "awake" hours. I have time to blog in leisure. I did miss dance.

Oh I dint tell you bout what happened at F mall yesterday, where I did Loads of grocery shopping. The owner there was hovering around assisting which he had never done before. Then I thought maybe he is waiting for me to wish him Eid, which I did after billing. Then he asked me if I would be performing the ITC show on Monday. gee I felt like a celeb :-D Well I wont be, as i will be working...

What else, what else....I cooked yummy homey food yesterday. Rice, rasam and beans upkari. I watched lots of T.V. I actually surfed v.little. Then I thought of going to this peaceful and quiet temple near my place as it being Ganesh Chaturthi , but It was not so. There were loads of people and pooja in full swing, which made me miss shim alot more. Then I went to Cafe Lounge. The ccd has been transformed to Cafe Lounge. I missed having a Cam then. I had an Assam tea(se) and Chocolate fantasy(fudge) while reading Many Lives Many Masters which I found to be a lot of Bull-crap. I can digest Paulo Coehlo's fictional philosophies better than what I read in this book. Don't know why Gub bothered buying this.

It was pretty deserted and dark the walk back home but I felt confident somehow despite the apprehensions. Cafe Lounge ambience is nice, dint find the tea and cake any different, service was good. Music instrumental, suited my mood as I dint want to listen to the same numbers I always listen to. Hmm but then I'm not a fan of change so I still miss the Ccd effect :)

And I never thought I would say this, But I think I'm beginning to like Sallu, cant wait to watchDabangg !!

OK I think enough said for today.

Of dreams and other things....

I've been having not so good dreams lately...Day before tiff with roomies type of dream, yesterday some stranger troubling and me kicking the wall. Also C story. What not. work wise been busy. need the weekend badly. There will be so many things I wanna write bout, but by the time i get here its all lost.

Really need to cut nails its annoying while typing.

Another weekend disappeared..

Time seems to just fly by me. The weekend was extremely busy but fun filled. Strenuous but worth the rush. The show went well...Messed up in few things but otherwise the videos look good. Tomorrow back to the same schedule. Same work, same faces. Wanna be off doing things I wanna do. Till then I'll try to R.I.P Lol...goodnight

And then there was hope...

I thought I was too tired. Too drained physically and mentally. I though I won't be able to write this post though I had so many things running through my mind.

I don't know how much I would be able to put it on this page but I'm glad at least I made an attempt.

On my way back from the studio this eve, I was worn and torn physically. But seeing certain things made me realize its not that bad at all. I reached out to help a blind boy to an empty seat. I watched a mechanic cleaning tyres in a tiny two wheeler garage. I saw a gol-guppa wala working to earn his daily bread. I just put myself in his position and tried to wonder, if I was that person how would I feel standing outside that MORE supermarket, going about my daily business. Would I be envious of those people driving by, loading their cars with shopping bags. Would I be envious of my customer with his pretty girl friend, fashionable clothes and funky gadgets. Or would I be content living my life, earning through my hard work.I don't know the answer to these. But what I do know is that life is just passing by as I moan. That I should rather be doing what I love than to crib bout what so many of them might not have.

I saw a few pics and post of Sudha Pillai and she just pushed me to come here and write this out. I know, just one topic can get me going. But I seem to run out of time and energy. Got an early start for tomorrow. There's a show tomorrow and I have three sequences to perform. I am excited and scared. Hope it goes well. Its been a long day today. And I think I have moaned enough.

Missed you Avril

Somehow Avril has escaped my mp3 . But thanks to sick puppies , it made up for her absence. Love anywhere but here. Time to hit the sack. Got a long busy weekend coming up. Gonna miss Step up 3D :( :(  with the troop.